This may be a shocker for some but I am a bit private when it comes to my personal struggles. Well, Brad and I have been trying to conceive for a while now and I was recently diagnosed with PCOS(Polycystic Ovary Syndrome). For the first few months I was a little depressed and annoyed whenever I heard of yet again another classmates good news of getting pregnant. I didn't understand why I was having so many issues with trying to get pregnant when everyone around me made it look easy.
After a few months of pity I was pulled out of my slump, I just kept praying and trusting God for my miracle. Sometimes it is a miracle to get pregnant, especially since you actually only have 2 days out of the month to conceive. I kinda went crazy the first few months. I was charting my temp, taking OPK tests and pregnancy test all the time, and I even bought an herbal tea to try and jump start my cycle. But then I realized I should just trust God and remember his promises to me.
Even though I was told it was going to be hard to get pregnant by my doctor I believe God is bigger than my health problems. Last July I was crying out to God and praying hannah's prayer in 1 Samuel asking God to please give me a child and that I would dedicate my child to him all the days of his/her life. Well in august I was attending a prayer meeting and I was alone praying about this...by the way no one knew I had been praying for a child including my husband. I had always told myself that I probably could not have kids since I have always had issues with my cycle not knowing the cause until recently.
Well as I was praying in private one of our church youth and a leader came up to me to pray. I did not know the young lady very well but I had seen her around. As she was praying she stopped and was like, "Can I ask you a weird question?", this kinda scared me of course. Hesitantly I said sure. She was like, "Well first are you married? When I said yes she proceeded to ask me what she called a "weird question". She asked if I had been praying for a baby.
I was stunned I had not told anyone but God what I was feeling. I stammered out a Yes. Once I said yes she proceeded to tell me that God was going to give me a child like Hannah in the bible and that no matter how long it takes to trust him, be sure, and be patient. I just smiled because I had been just reading about Hannah and praying similar to what she prayed.
She also stated that God stressed that no matter how long I have to wait his answer is Yes. I was elated to hear God speaking through this young lady for little ol' me. I had honestly never experienced anything like that before. And in the last few months I have had confirmations of God's promise from others.
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